Life Progress: C+

I think that one of the most disappointing things about a lot of our culture is that there are very few clearly defined rites of passage.  I sit here at thirty years old and I rarely feel any more a man than I did when I was on the playground last week.

They're there, though.  They're just not as dramatic as hunting a boar or renting your first prostitute.  They're often slow, and you don't even know they're happening.

Today I reflected for a moment on one of the biggest differences between my life now, and when I was a child:

I have no idea what I'm doing.

I remember at the time feeling that I was trapped in a tyrannical regime bent on eliminating every sliver of freedom from my life... and in some respects that was true... but you know what?  I had structure.  I knew what was expected of me, and I got regular status updates.  My direction was clear:  Forward.  As long as I kept going to school, I didn't have to think about anything.

Now I have no idea what's going on, when I'm doing well or not, or how to get anything done.  Sometimes I wish I still got those Six Week Progress Reports like in high school.

Work: C-
     (Adam works well when he works, but is often distracted by something he refers to as "blogging."  This could become an issue in the future.)
Social: B
     (Adam has made great strides in making himself more available to his peers.  However, he does not play well with others, and has recently displayed an abrasive attitude.)
Recreation: B+
     (While it took him a while to dedicate himself to the project, Adam recently completed Mass Effect 2 with flying colors.  He has yet to complete Fallout 3.)
Romance: F
     (Adam displays very little comprehension of the basic principle of this field.  I suggest he begin remedial classes as soon as possible.)
Summary: Adam shows a lot of potential, but little interest in fulfilling it.  He would go far if just displayed a little more initiative.


You know what?  I've changed my mind.  I don't want that at all.